It’s just saddening…

So you know D’s kids are living with their mother.  A week ago D sent an e-mail (to their mother) asking if he could write a letter to L and A. This was her response:

“This would not be in the best interest of L and A, therefore, my answer is no.”

Now, as a mother, I don’t understand how a letter could hurt a child. I mean it’s in writing, she could read it and block out anything that she didn’t “agree” with.  So that is weird enough right?  Well, listen to this.  D then asked her if she would send a current picture of L and A so he could have one.  At first she responded with a yes.  This morning, we received this e-mail from her:

“While I appreciate the pleasantries, I know nothing has changed with your circumstances. In fact I understand they have become worse. Therefore making your requests and motive very questionable. For the protection and best intrest of L and A, at this time, there will be no contact of any kind and I am not sending a picture.  N ”

Seriously, how could a picture hurt L and A?  And even if our situation was worse, which it isn’t, how does our situation have anything to do with her sending a picture?  I mean is D going to telepathically speak to L&A through a picture?  What motive could there be in wanting a picture of his kids?  I am a mom.  I can understand reasonable worries about ones children, but this?  It just blows me away! 

Here is a woman who became a lesbian, left her husband, worked at strip club and found some rich guy to marry. The guy she married by the way has had three DUI’s.  In addition, he has been sued for non-payment of a real-estate investment where he stole 12,000.00 from the poor souls who wanted to buy his property.  He has been suspended in Idaho from building any property due to his deceit.  I don’t bring this up to prove how “bad” she and her new husband are, only to point out that no one is perfect.  We all make mistakes, but mistakes shouldn’t keep a father from his children.  There are men in prison who have more rights to their children than she allows D.

Yet somehow D’s motives are questionable? He wants is a picture of HIS kids.  Here is a man who has committed no crime (with the exception of minor in consumption as teenager) and now works at a facility where, in order to become employed one has to go through an extensive back ground investigation.  So if you could keep this in your prayers, please do.  We can only hope God will restore L&A to their father sooner rather than later. 

Unfortunately this reminds me of a dateline special MSNBC aired about a man who had his son kidnapped by his Brazilian ex-wife.  She took their son and remarried a rich guy who happened to be a lawyer.  After the woman died, the step-father continued to deny visitation to the father and filed numerous court proceedings preventing the father from any contact with his son.  While my heart goes out to the father, it irked me somewhat that MSNBC has neglected the numerous father’s this happens to right here in the United States.

Somehow, a woman is viewed more favorably by the courts.  It’s almost as if a woman can get away with whatever she wants when it comes to children in the family court system.  Especially if a woman has money.  I don’t understand how this is allowed when there are more than enough studies to prove that children who are raised without both biological parents grow up to have numerous problems.

It leaves me thinking…how does this happen?  D isn’t the only father in this situation…I can think of two others right off the top of my head.  It really is disgraceful.  Just sickening.

There is something I would like to say….

Okay…so we all know we are in economic crisis at this time.  For some reason the media produces stories of the “all American family” struggling with increased mortgage and credit card payments.  Somehow the responsibility falls solely upon the lender.

I do not agree.  These people, though their plight is unfortunate, agreed to terms that were clearly written within the loans that they took upon themselves.  Now, granted, at the time these loans were agreed upon, our economy was booming.  That however, does not excuse the borrower.

No one, and I repeat, No one!  Held a gun to these people’s heads and forced them to charge 30,000 on a credit card.  And no one forced homeowners who didn’t have the income to support a mortgage to sign on the dotted line. 

My question:  Where is the accountability? 

This isn’t to say that I haven’t had and have not succumbed to this horrible economic downturn…believe me, my credit is entirely ruined and it is my own fault.  I didn’t do what was necessary to fix the problem, in a way of savings and preparing.  I am suffering the consequences and bear them wholeheartedly. 

Maybe it’s just the press, trying to excuse a generation unwilling to say, “My problem, I created….”  And where there is no hope or help for those in need my heart truly goes out…let us learn from this, as did our forefathers in the Great Depression…we can count on nothing but the grace of Almighty God….And let us not buy anything unless we have the money….NOT credit….

Of course I could be wrong….

There is no excuse

I wish I had one but I don’t.  A lot of things have been going on though since my last post.  A new job, new responsibilities, family issues…you know.  The usual.

But for those that are far away and wonder how I am doing, well, we are wonderful.  Experiencing the grace of our Father by making it every moment, every day, every second. Just being alive is a gift and I am thankful.

I’ve been busy…

Almost forgot I have a blog…I wanted to share this e-mail I recieved about Obama.  This was labled “Obama’s Not Exactlys” 

1.)  Selma March Got Me Born - NOT EXACTLY, your parents felt safe enough to have you in 1961 -  Selma had no effect on your birth, as  Selma was in 1965. (Google ‘Obama  Selma ’ for his full  March 4, 2007 speech and articles about its various untruths.)

2.) Father Was A Goat Herder - NOT EXACTLY, he was a privileged, well educated youth, who went on to work with the Kenyan Government.

3.) Father Was A Proud Freedom Fighter - NOT EXACTLY, he was part of one of the most corrupt and violent governments  Kenya has ever had.

4.) My Family Has Strong Ties To African Freedom - NOT EXACTLY, your cousin Raila Odinga has created mass violence in attempting to overturn a legitimate election in 2007, in  Kenya . It is the first widespread violence in decades. The current government is pro-American but Odinga wants to overthrow it and establish Muslim Sharia law. Your half-brother, Abongo Oba ma, is Odinga’s follower. You interrupted your New Hampshire campaigning to speak to Odinga on the phone. Check out the following link for verification of that….and for more.

Obama’s cousin Odinga in  Kenya ran for president and tried to get Sharia muslim law in place there. When Odinga lost the elections, his followers have burned Christians’ homes and then burned men, women and children alive in a Christian church where they took shelter.. Obama SUPPORTED his cousin before the election process here started. Google Obama and Odinga and see what you get. No one wants to know t he truth.

5.) My Grandmother Has Always Been A Christian - NOT EXACTLY, she does her daily Salat prayers at  5am according to her own interviews. Not to mention, Christianity wouldn’t allow her to have been one of 14 wives to 1 man.

6.) My Name is African Swahili - NOT EXACTLY, your name is Arabic and ‘Baraka’ (from which Barack came) means ‘blessed’ in that language. Hussein is also Arabic and so is Obama.

Barack Hussein Obama is not half black. If elected, he would be the first Arab-American President, not the first black President. Barack Hussein Obama is 50% Caucasian from his mother’s side and 43.75% Arabic and 6.25% African Negro from his father’s side. While Barack Hussein Obama’s father was from  Kenya , his father’s family was mainly Arabs… Barack Hussein Obama’s father was only 12.5% African Negro and 87.5% Arab (his father’s birth certificate even states he’s Arab, not African Negro). From….and for more….go to. …

http://www.arcadeathome.com/newsboy.phtml?Barack_Hussein_Obama_-_Arab-American,_only_6.25%25_African

7.) I Never Practiced Islam - NOT EXACTLY, you practiced it daily at school, where you were registered as a Muslim and kept that faith for 31 years, until your wife made you change, so you could run for office.

4-3-08 Article ‘Obama was ‘quite religious in islam” http://www.wnd.com/index.php?fa=PAGE.view&pageId=60559

8.) My School In Indonesia Was Christian - NOT EXACTLY, you were registered as Muslim there and got in trouble in Koranic Studies for making faces (check your own book).

February 28, 2008. Kristoff from the New York Times a year ago: Mr. Obama recalled the opening lines of the Arabic call to p ray er, reciting them with a first-rate accent. In a remark that seemed delightfully uncalculated (it’ll give Alabama voters heart attacks), Mr. Obama described the call to p ray er as ‘one of the prettiest sounds on Earth at sunset.’ This is just one example of what Pamela is talking about when she says ‘Obama’s narrative is being altered, enhanced and manipulated to whitewash troubling facts.’

9.) I Was Fluent In Indonesian - NOT EXACTLY, not one teacher says you could speak the language.

10.) Because I Lived In  Indonesia , I Have More Foreign Experience - NOT EXACTLY, you were there from the ages of 6 to 10, and couldn’t even speak the language. What did you learn except how to study the Koran and watch cartoons.

11.) I Am Stronger On Foreign Affairs - NOT EXACTLY, except for Africa (surprise) and the  Middle East (bigger surprise), you have never been anywhere else on the planet and thus have NO experience with our closest allies.

12.) I Blame My Early Drug Use On Ethnic Confusion - NOT EXACTLY, you were quite content in high school to be Barry Obama, no mention of  Kenya and no mention of struggle to identify – your classmates said you were just fine

13.)An Ebony Article Moved Me To Run For Office - NOT EXACTLY, Ebony has yet to find the article you mention in your book. It doesn’t, and never did, exist.

14.) A Life Magazine Article Changed My Outlook On Life - NOT EXACTLY, Life has yet to find the article you mention in your book. It doesn’t, and never did, exist.

15.) I Won’t Run On A National Ticket In ‘08 - NOT EXACTLY, here you are, despite saying, live on TV, that you would not have enough experience by then, and you are all about having experience first.

16.) Voting ‘Present’ is Common In  Illinois Senate - NOT EXACTLY, they are common for YOU, but not many others have 130 NO VOTES.

17.) Oops, I Misvoted - NOT EXACTLY, only when caught by church groups and Democrats, did you beg to change your misvote.

18.) I Was A Professor Of Law - NOT EXACTLY, you were a senior lecturer ON LEAVE.

19.) I Was A Constitutional Lawyer - NOT EXACTLY, you were a senior lecturer ON LEAVE.

20.) Without Me, There Would Be No Ethics Bill - NOT EXACTLY, you didn’t write it, introduce it, change it or create it.

21.) The Ethics Bill Was Hard To Pass - NOT EXACTLY, it took just 14 days from start to finish.

22.) I Wrote A Tough Nuclear Bill - NOT EXACTLY, your bill was rejected by your own party for its pandering and lack of all regulation – mainly because of your Nuclear donor, Exelon, from which David Axelrod came.

23.) I Have Released My State Records - NOT EXACTLY, as of March, 2008, state bills you sponsored or voted for have yet to be released, exposing all the special interests pork hidden within.

24.) I Took On The Asbestos Altgeld Gardens Mess - NOT EXACTLY, you were part of a large group of people who remedied  Altgeld  Gardens . You failed to mention anyone else but yourself, in your books.

25.) My Economics Bill Will Help America - NOT EXACTLY, your 111 economic policies were just combined into a proposal which lost 99-0, and even YOU voted against your own bill.

26.) I Have Been A Bold Leader In  Illinois - NOT EXACTLY, even your own supporters claim to have not seen BOLD action on your part.

27.) I Passed 26 Of My Own Bills In One Year - NOT EXACTLY, they were not YOUR bills, but rather handed to you, after their creation by a fellow Senator, to assist you in a future bid for higher office.

28.) No One on my campaign contacted  Canada about NAFTA - NOT EXACTLY, the Canadian Government issued the names and a memo of the conversation your campaign had with them.

29.) I Am Tough On Terrorism - NOT EXACTLY, you missed the Iran Resolution vote on terrorism and your good friend Ali Abunimah supports the destruction off  Israel .

30.) I Want All Votes To Count - NOT EXACTLY, you said let the delegates decide.

31.) I Want Americans To Decide - NOT EXACTLY, you prefer caucuses that limit the vote, confuse the voters, force a public vote, and only operate during small windows of time.

32.) I passed 900 Bills in the State Senate - NOT EXACTLY, you passed 26, most of which you didn’t write yourself.

33.) I Believe In Fairness, Not Tactics - NOT EXACTLY, you used tactics to eliminate Alice Palmer from running against you.

34.) I Don’t Take PAC Money - NOT EXACTLY, you take loads of it.

35.) I don’t Have Lobbysists - NOT EXACTLY, you have over 47 lobbyists, and counting.

36.) My Campaign Had Nothing To Do With The 1984 Ad - NOT EXACTLY, your own campaign worker made the ad on his Apple in one afternoon.

37.) I Have Always Been Against  Iraq - NOT EXACTLY, you weren’t in office to vote against it AND you have voted to fund it every single time.

38.) I Have Always Supported Universal Health Care - NOT EXACTLY, your plan leaves us all to pay for the 15,000,000 who don’t have to buy it.

39.) My uncle liberated  Auschwitz concentration camp - NOT EXACTLY, your mother had no brothers and the Russan army did the liberating.

So, who EXACTLY is this Obama guy and what is he trying to sell us?  Please get to work now…not enough of your loved ones and friends know about this fraud.

Sharing an e-mail I recieved…

I just want to thank all of you for your educational emails over the past year.

Thanks to you, I no longer open a public bathroom door without using a paper towel.

I can't use the remote in a hotel room because I don't know what the last 

person was doing while flipping through the adult movie channels.

I can't sit down on the hotel bedspread because I can only imagine

 what has happened on it since it was last washed. 

I can't enjoy lemon slices in my tea or on my seafood anymore because

lemon peels have been found to contain all kinds of nasty germs

including feces.   

I have trouble shaking hands with someone who has been driving because

the number one pass-time while driving alone is picking your nose

(although cell phone usage may be taking the number one spot) 

Eating a Little Debbie sends me on a guilt trip because I can only

imagine how many gallons of Trans fats I have consumed over the years. 

I can't touch any woman's purse for fear she has placed it on the floor

of a public bathroom.  Yuck!  

I must send my special thanks to whoever sent me the one about poop in

the glue on envelopes because I now have to use a wet sponge with every

envelope that needs sealing.   

Also, now I have to scrub the top of every can I open for the same

reason. 

I no longer have any savings because I gave it to a sick girl (Penny

Brown)  who is about to die in the hospital for the 1,387,258th time. 

I no longer have any money at all, but that will change once I receive

the  $15,000 that Bill Gates/Microsoft and AOL are sending me for

participating in their special e-mail program. 

I no longer worry about my soul because I have 363,214 angels looking

out for me, and St. Theresa's novena has granted my every wish. 

I no longer eat KFC because the ir chickens are actually horrible mutant

freaks with no eyes or feathers. 

I no longer use cancer-causing deodorants even though I smell like a

water buffalo on a hot day. 

Thanks to you,

 I have learned that my prayers only get answered if I

forward an email to seven of my friends and make a wish within five

minutes. 

Because of your concern I no longer drink Coca Cola because it can

remove toilet stains.

I no longer can buy gasoline without taking someone along to watch the

car so a serial killer won't crawl in my back seat when I'm pumping

gas.. 

I no longer drink Pepsi or Dr Pepper since the people who make these

products are atheists who refuse to put 'Under God'  on their cans. 

I no longer use Saran wrap in the microwave because it cause s cancer. 

And thanks for letting me know I can't boil a cup of water in the

microwave anymore because it will blow up in my face...disfiguring me

for life. 

I no longer check the coin return on pay phones because I could be

pricked with a needle infected with AIDS. 

I no longer go to shopping malls because someone will drug me with a

perfume sample and rob me. 

I no longer receive

 packages from UPS or FedEx since they are actually

Al Qaeda in disguise. 

I no longer shop at Target since they are French and don't support our

American troops or the Salvation Army. 

I no longer answer the phone because someone will ask me to dial a

number for which I will get a phone bill with calls to

Jamaica,Uganda & Singapore and & Uzbekistan . 

I no longer buy expensive cookies from Neiman Marcus since I now have

their  recipe. 

Thanks to you, I can't use anyone's toilet but mine because a big brown

African spider is lurking under the seat to cause me instant death when

it bites my butt. 

And thanks to your great advice, I can't ever pick up $5.00 dropped in

the parking lot because it probably was placed there by a sex molester

waiting underneath my car to grab my leg. 

I can no longer drive my car because I can't buy gas from certain gas

companies!

 So....If you don't send this e-mail to at least 144,000 people in the

next 70 minutes, a large dove with diarrhea will land on your head at

5:00 PM this afternoon and the fleas from 12 camels will infest your

back, causing you to grow a hairy hump. I know this will occur because

it actually happened to a friend of my next door neighbor's

ex-mother-in-law's second husband's cousin's beautician... 

Have a wonderful day... 

Oh,  and by the way..... 

A German scientist from

 Argentina , after a lengthy study, has

discovered that people with insufficient brain activity read their

e-mail with their hand on the mouse. 

Don't bother taking it off now, it's too late.

I have 0 awaiting moderation

The question I guess is do I care?  No.  I am not writing this post so people will comment.  I am writing so those who are far away know I am okay.

In recent news…my step-brother from far, far, away left a comment.  I felt connected somehow because he was there.  He saw it all and I can’t get away from the fact the someone out there was a witness to the horrors of my childhood whether he admits it or not (I don’t know if he does, just saying).

In my life, I am alone (or at least that is how it feels).  My husband is working now and I am left for 8 hours alone contemplating what I shall do with the rest of my life…nothing is coming to mind right away.  So right now, I am posting about nothing, yet everything. 

With God’s grace I may have an opportunity to teach two new karate students.  Who knows if it will work out.  My instructor told me the other day that I needed a catalyst.  Maybe this is it.  All I know is that there a few who take the sport seriously and those who do…do, they don’t think…they do.  So…maybe…this will be my catalyst.

Just maybe…

I have a place, it is my favorite place.  I sit and watch the birds for hours at the MK Nature Center.  There is a gazebo for two and a stream that runs in the middle.  One time, a few years ago in the fall, a deer and her fawn walked in the middle of that stream.  I felt like I had been given a gift.  They stood there cautiously, with me sitting in the gazebo at the very far end hidden by the shrubs.  I didn’t move and they ate and drank without a care in the world.  This day I decided to venture into my spot because I was at a turning point in my life.  Whether to date the man that was to be my husband, or to continue in the single life.

I chose my husband…